Since the day i met you

I love the way things are(:

2010-10-08T19:47:00.003+08:00

Last Wednesday was my birthday & bf. Last two days was my ibu's birthday. Plan went smoothly eventhough me & bf rushed a bit. I'm glad to see ibu smiled widely! Hehe I hope she love the present we bought for her :D

For me & bf's birthday turned out well! We did things we never did before. We went Sentosa for our Luge & Skyride!!! The luge was fun! Tauheed wanted a second ride but naaahhhh. Next time there is! We had a 20 minutes cable car ride. The sweetest thing was, Tauheed brought me to the cable car during sunset(: Our first birthday together was fun! I enjoyed every seconds with him(:

Days to come was my TP. Was nervous of course. I did badly i guess. I was upset, very knowing i failed my TP but that doesn't bring me down. With alot of encouragement, insyallah, i'll do well for my next TP!

Exam results is out! I'm glad i passed with ______(:

;);

2010-09-19T14:13:00.003+08:00

For the very first time ever, i walked into my parent's room. On my knees, hugging my mum tight, crying. I was extremely upset. This time, emotional breakdown for days. I was holding back my tears for a very long time. I had no one to hug to cry my heart out. I felt relieved after hugging my mum crying and let everything out. I want that everyday. I still feel im losing someone very special in my life. All i had was silence this few days.

I found this while i was browsing my friend's post and i find it very meaningful..

"Apologizing does not always mean you are wrong and the other person is right. It just means you value your relationship more than your ego..."

P/S: i still love you...

For real.

2010-09-19T00:14:00.004+08:00

Even on your special day, you didn't give me a little bit time to celebrate with you when you can go crazy with those you're meeting at night. If this is what you call bestfriend then you're wrong. This is what you plan earlier before the day comes.

And you, i never have doubts in you but guess what happen now. I never thought of you that way. I have faith in you all this time. Eventhough at times i had difficulties communicating with you, i never give up. You may be laughing at my nonsense but i am trying. I never want to let myself down even if you did.

p/s: Silence kill everything..

!!!

2010-08-26T21:24:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was aweeeeessssoooommmeee! I had lots of fun with them! =D

9 months with Tauheed was the funnest!((:

Material & Process Tech test is tomorrow!!! Will be staying up late to studdyyyy with Tauheed.. Aja aja Fighting! (:

A Blast!

2010-08-23T14:21:00.006+08:00

I had a wonderful time with my sister & Tauheed yesterday! We went to McDonald at 10plus until 1.15am! Once my sister & Tauheed start talking, there they go.. never ending conversation & Thank you so much for the treat bby, always ;D

And tomorrow we turned ♥9months!(:

First Iftar with Wanie, Yati, Nana & Mamat last week was great! =D

And i am looking forward for second iftar with my secondary schoolmate this Wednesday!(:

Not forgetting my 9years friends! Saleha & Mimi!

Off all, i can't wait for the time where Tauheed will ask me out to break fast with him♥

P/s : I cant fast ):

2010-08-17T22:22:00.003+08:00

Take a look at what you have. Think of all you did to get it. Remember it only takes one second to lose.

Should i

2010-08-15T05:47:00.002+08:00

I've seen it. Everyone has been asking the same question. I am so embarrassed. I've yet to prepare for the worst. If the worst part comes, i redha with everything that is going to happen. I can't force something to be mine officially. From what i saw, there goes the signals which will lead to, i shall not say it here.

Back to the start

2010-08-10T19:20:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time since i watch Korean drama with ibu & now we're back to watch Korean drama together after she got back from work, relax for awhile, eat her dinner & stuffs. It is fun to sit on the sofa together with my mum watching korean drama! She will lhao and even bit me at times(: It would be more fun if it could be the whole family sitting at one sofa watch tv together(; She was extremely excited! I am jealous. Tauheed was more jealous than i am. Tsktsk. At last i got to meet my gfs at Orchard & we ate at Sakura cuisine! & then seperate ways. We didn't get a clear view of firewerks but i was happy to at least get to see the not-clear firewerks. We should have came there earlier to find the perfect spot. Hehe!

Today we had our lunch at HEI Sushi!!! We had 2 hours break so ya! Having so much fun until we almost forget about out test! =x But we managed to finish up all the questions! Yipeeeee! Had another hour break! Monopoly Deal!!! As per usual. Today, i made bf laughed alot!!! Until he couldnt ride his bike for minutes because he couldnt clutch in! Heheeeee! Bacenor! Seeing him smile early in the morning makes my day!(:

Thanks for eveything bby!=D

2010-08-08T20:54:00.002+08:00

I find this picture interesting(:

Tomorrow is National Day(!!!) & in 2 days time comes the fasting period! Everything happens so fast! I am really looking forward for September but not October-_- So October, please take your time alright & don't come too fast. I'm afraid.

Tomorrow will be my 3rd watching fireworks with Tauheed! Yey! I am always excited when it comes to fireworks eventhough i watch it every year in every event! Hehe. Will be meeting my 2 gf after so so long! Yipee! At last!

p/s: Im done watching ACCIDENTAL COUPLE in 3 days! :p

...

2010-08-04T22:01:00.005+08:00

I'm yours, you're mine isn't everything.

P/s: Don't be blinded by your first date, it is FAKE.

Cairo!

2010-07-26T21:25:00.005+08:00

Last Sunday was a bit emotional for our family. Believe it or not, no matter how macho & manly, strong abang are, the love for our own blood is unbeatable compared to anyone. Everyone was in tears. In fact it was tears of joy. All of us couldn't hold up the tears any longer no matter how hard u tried to hide it. Ismail has been a good son, brother, nephew, cousin & everything. He's going Mesir to pursue his dreams there for 4 years. He made everyone proud! INSYALLAH he's going to succeed in everything he does there, AMIN... Am going to miss him so much)'; That night was a memorable & unforgettable night...

Again on this days

2010-07-23T15:05:00.003+08:00

Again, i got no one to talk to when im nervous, no one to hear my happiness, no one for me to hold onto & hug tightly. It's a sad thing. All i can do is move forward, think forward & don't hope too much. Just like today. It's a big achievement for me(:

I tried my very best to calm myself down. Eat as much as i can & drink as much as i can before the time ticks 1. A message which at least brought a smile on my face was enough. I did it!

Quizzical

2010-07-19T23:09:00.002+08:00

Thinking about the future really scares me. I never want to get old. I still want to be a kid. So, please i'm not prepared to be a 100% mature lady. As for now, i want to learn how to communicate well with the people surrounding me. I want to learn how to manage my own stuffs. I want to learn to understand people's situation. I want to learn everything eventhough it might not turn out perfectly.

There's only 3 things i want in life. To have a successful life, to be able to take care of my parents & make them proud whenever i can while they're still alive & to be with someone who accept me for who i am(:

Insyallah, i'll achieve what i want in life..

Aniway, thanks Tauheed for accompanying me to break my fast yesterday & today! FINALLY!!! you got new baby!!! Jangan action okayy! Take care of it properly & remember my father's advice about handling your new baby! Lol. Let's prepare for tomorrow shall we? I think it's going to be a long lecture by our section head. Till here then!

Goodnight beautiful people(:

Sticky!

2010-07-17T11:57:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY SHARIL IZWAN! Have a good life ahead & May ALLAH bless you in everything that you do! (:

After a few days, a date with Tauheed, finally! & He rode his old bike, TZM. Full of laughter! Was super funny when the it stalled for 2 times! 1, carpark & 1, road. Took out the P-plate. Hehe. Very weird. Very. He just couldn't stop laughing. & i think the bike look small on him. Lol. At night, he showed me the light. & back to its home sweet home. Thanks bby for all the 3 bikes yesterday! Sekali one shot, tige2 naik! (:

I'm missing Yati & Wanie very much! We've not been meeting for quite a long time. I hope to see you after Yati comes back from KL. Okok?(:

Pose!

2010-07-13T18:13:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO JEPON! May ALLAH bless you in everything that you do. Wishing you a good life ahead & may you success in everything you do! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

POST SPECIALLY FOR YOU bucukor!

Am fasting today to pay back all the days that i've not been fasting last year. I did not sahur because i was super duper lazy to wake up but at least da niat. So, i went to school by bus early in the morning today. & yes, i reached first Tauheed! You lose! Pfft. Confident lah smlm boleh bangun siang konon. He WAS sweet enough not to eat in front me but he actually did because i dont mind. He WAS sweet letting me sleep & rest in class and during breaktime. He WAS sweet enough to be a good boy today as he didn't want me to lose my temper & go *&^$#@U** over him. Tsktsk. He WAS very sweet as he confesses to me that he love me more than anyone do. He is very sweet & loving in everything he does. But it is NOT sweet when we saw his clone from far. With helmet on his arm, ITE COLLEGE EAST logo on maroon polo t, the way he walk, the way he answered phone calls(OMGOMG!) & with all buttons unbutton. I don't want to see your clone anymore please. I get shock everytime i saw him. Ok, i love you bby! I can't wait for our date this Friday!((:

=D

2010-07-09T13:49:00.002+08:00

~~Material test~~ : DONE!

Process Technology Test : POSTPONE TO 19 JULY instead of 12 july because of? World Cup final? What a joke. Haha.

GUESS WHAT?! I PASSED MY FINAL THEORY TEST! Alhamdulillah... & i had my PDL! Hehe(:

I am so happy! Very happy! There's too many excited things happened this week. I'm glad that i managed to surprise Tauheed. I'm sorry for the white lie. Tsktsk.

In a few weeks time, my cousin is going to Mesir for 4 years! Everyone was proud of him as he managed to study overseas with his great grades. I am going to miss him. We've been very close since we were babies! Same age katekan! So, we'll have gathering & also tahlil for him. Meet you once a while cousin!

Only 1 shit happened, Tauheed's bike dropped yesterday. I was so shocked. It happened when i told him to come in & played monopoly deal while waiting for ibu & kakak to come home but he hesitated. Still, i forced him. If he didn't his bike won't dropped i guess. After so many months, suddenly this shit happen. If it was the car who hit it, then we've got no prove & we won't know who. BUT if it was someone's shit thing to do that, then soon that human will be caught by us(: So, WATCH OUT OK! Hehe. Can Tauheed? Fierce eh your gf! * Howl-ing! * Just like JACOB! Lol.

You know, this few days i'm afraid of looking & listening to other's relationship. Here & there had 3rd party. That's what i'm afraid of the most. I do have faith in our relationship, i do. So let's pray hard for our relationship(:

Funnest!

2010-07-07T00:24:00.003+08:00

I am having MATERIALS test tomorrow and i am not ready for it. Too much of having fun during 3 weeks of holiday! So, we were given 45 questions. Every students will be having different sets of questions but not more than 10 questions! How are we suppose to study! I think we got about 9 topics to learn and this module is more to science! I dont like science since secondary school! OMG! I am having a hard time here. Easy set for me pretty please sir? Hehe. I am here blogging while waiting for bf to come back from JB! & am having fun using kakak's lappy! I hope this week will be a happy happy week for me. Insyallah. Everything depends on this one particular day. Pssstt.. Even bf don't know about it. Heee. Will update what is it soon! Goodnight beautiful people!(:

Saranghae-yo!

2010-07-02T11:55:00.006+08:00

Greetings people! This few days weren't a good day for me including Wanie & Yati. We've been meeting for 2 days straight. Anything that has happened isn't what we asked for. Not only we have tests in schools but also in life. We're facing alot of tests in life. No matter how big or small your problem is, your family is the only one who can help us. I love ibu & ayah. They've never been this understanding before. At first, i ignored what my mum told me to do as i felt that the whole world is against me. They only see me as the one who'd been creating problems to bf. On the other side of the story, they don't know what really happen & how i really feel. In the end, i know that both my parents still support me n give me the strength n motivation to face this problem with him. Besides your family, some will feel more comfortable talking to their close friends. Even i feel comfortable talking to my 2 gfs. They may not do anything or solve our problem for us but they are the one who could cheer u up when ur down & make you forget your problems for a short period of time. You'll feel relieve after u laugh it off & let it go. That's what FRIENDS are for(:

To my dearest bf, thanks for your time yesterday. Even when im not myself, i felt secured with u ard me the whole night. I know that you'll say that im not troubling you, but im really sorry because i did troubled you. I hope this won't happen again. Im happy that everything is back to normal(: Thanks for everything bby.

Looking back

2010-07-01T13:18:00.005+08:00

I miss the times where we first got to know each other. I miss the time where u've been calling me 'kechik' again & again. I miss the time where we had fun sitting down at one place, eating ice cream/OCK, drinking starbucks/mcafe/bubble tea, playing cards, chatting late night, on the phone with you everyday before going to bed etc. I really wish time could turn back time to where we first met. You are a sunshine in my life. I'm never upset or angry with you ard. I really miss those days. I really wish that you are here right now beside me, hold me & hug me tight just to say everything is going to be fine. Im really dying inside. I can't think of anything right now.

)':

2010-06-29T23:57:00.003+08:00

I really wish i could understand you. Im not perfect. Humans are bound to make mistake, thats what u said. Ya ALLAH, pls give me the strength to face the test u're giving me.

I'm sorry i hurt you. I love you.

I am back!

2010-06-24T00:05:00.003+08:00

the Karate Kid movie was superb! I watched it a day after i reached Spore with bf. Today i went out with my family to Bugis. I really wished i could speak out to bf to bring me to waterfront today but i just cant do it. I want this night, our 7th to be the sweetest wish for him. Thanks for making me smile by sending the hamster back home! Hee(:

I hate this month, i really do)':

Here we go again

2010-06-18T23:22:00.003+08:00

I am the very the tired. I did spring cleaning in the morning with kakak. My house was like heaven for only a few hours and when i got back home, im speechless. Effort wasted): I met bf today after he finished his prayers. We went to watched 'She's out of my league'! Very funny! To Wanie's house with Yati & Khairul around. They karoke while i played monopoly deal with bf bcos i almost lost my voice. That made bf laughed out loud & called me his babyrockstar only for yesterday & today(:

I'll be away for 3 days & im going to miss you bf & my precious girlfriends. I had fun playing pool, monopoly deal again&again, to waterfront during midnight with bf,kakak&Hakim & many2 more!

Simple plain.

2010-06-13T12:54:00.002+08:00

2 days ago, i went to Wanie's house. Wanie! Thanks for cooking for me & Hakim walaupun tak ikhlas! ((: Meet you soon gf!
Yesterday i went to the PC Show at Suntec City. Kakak bought herself a new lappy! After that me & bf went to Kallang Leisure Park. Wanted to watch movies but with the long queues.... Mintak ampun, tak sanggup kite. Wanted to eat Rockery Ice Cream but i had sore throat so cannot. Must wait until the sore throat go away):
Hopefully the weather today will be good so that we can go fly kite! Hehe(:

(;

2010-06-11T13:17:00.002+08:00

While waiting for Hakim & Bf to come back from Sembahyang Jumaat, here i am blogging and watching hindustan at the same time. Hee. And when they're back, we'll be watching Ju on Black Ghost & White Ghost! Yey! BTw, watching Hakim's moves on the the bike made me laugh out loud outside my house. Haha. He's super scared.
Later, i'll be going to Wanie's house with Yati. At last i'll be meeting the three of us again!

Last but not least congrats to me & Tauheed! We passed our Quality Control Test! WEEEEEEEE! =D

Yey!

2010-06-09T18:28:00.002+08:00

School ended early today & went to school for nothing. Slack, eat, drink & play monopoly deal. So i did some house chores & watch Full House. I am trying to make time pass by quick! Hehe(:

I was browsing thru some people fb. Heh. I saw something that really shocked me. Still excited to put my name down there eh. I won't talk much about it. I just cant be bothered and i've long long ago moved on already and almost everyday i didn't think of you or even talk about you. Amazing eh. So, if you want to bitch about me go ahead. Sorry to say but Just Like mother like son lor. Love to bitch around without valid reason. Pfft.

& Wanie, take care! Sorry i didn't go to your house today. Lain kali nak kacau org pun jgn kol pkl 12 pagi, aku da tido. Buang mase je nak maen2. Lol. See you on Sunday!(:
Oh Yes! I'll be meeting Tauheed so soon!!! Yey! He's now up up in the sky going down down soon((:

A day without you

2010-06-07T16:04:00.002+08:00

I just came back from school. Very sleepy. & i super love it when i get to sleep in the bus after a tiring day in school. Usually, i didn't get the chance to sleep because i bf will send me back home. Today, only 1/4 attendance. Pfft. So boring but!!! I had fun playing Monopoly Deal from break time until class ended. First, Au Yang bought the monopoly deal on the day itself after bf taught him how to play. Then now, Eiss bought it! Who's next? Haha.
Ok, today i have a date with sister and maybe with Hakim. We're going to watch the Killers! Yeah. Time please pass by fast, please. I really miss my bf):
Oh! & I received a call from him at night yesterday! Was super excited lor and i think he's checking on me whether i was asleep or not. Hehe. Now, Everynight i had a schedule with ibu to watch Full House, again. Watched it twice already and its worth it!
So, i'll be going school tomorrow for only 1 lesson which mean i can wake up late & have my breakfast before going to school tomorrow. Hee((:
I am done. I want to watch THE Hottie & THE Nottie. I know im very outdated(:

(:

2010-06-06T19:12:00.002+08:00

I ate my breakfast with ibu today and as per usual, shop a little bit[ibu's favourite thing to do] & go home. I watched Full House again with ibu again. I am trying my best to let the time passes by as quickly as possible! Hehe. I've been smiling since i woke up just now. Again, i received a msg from bf and very thoughtful of him to gave me a surprise at fb. Mentel lor. Hopefully he's enjoying himself there.
School tomorrow!!! Luckily class end early tomorrow(:
& i can't wait for 2/3 more days!!

My mum keep laughing at me because i got so excited when my hp rang but it's not from the person i've been hoping for. Pfft -_-
Bacen lor.

OH! Wanie & Yati sorry tk join korang karoke niari! Hehe. Next time okeh!(:
Tauheed, i love you & i miss you many2! =D

Random

2010-06-05T20:30:00.000+08:00

Tauheed is away for 4 days & i've just receive a msg from him, a long one. Alhamdulillah he has safely touched down(: I hope he will be enjoying himself there.

School holidays is around the corner and yes!! We are done with reports & test! I am only left with LLA project to hand in this Monday.
I borrowed alot of CDs from Wanie just now and i met Yati today and right now, they are at town areas while im at home to teman ibu(:
Ok, thats it.

Fresh New Look

2010-05-29T20:50:00.000+08:00

I love you Tauheed!(: